One morning
Woke up feeling so upside down
Took a warm bath
Didn't feel beautiful
Didn't feel like a lady
There were nothing to feel
Just looking in the mirror
What do I see?
I see nobody
Just don't see Contessa Brown, not Sexi Mama C, Sexi Shea Bear, nor LaShea Williams
I don't exist
Not in my brown eyes, I don't.
Just looking in the mirror
I see tearing flowing down my cheek
Whatever made me cry hard, it hit me hard
As I was crying, I feel my life is over
Just looking in the mirror,
Just not a beautiful women anymore
I know I'm beautiful in God's eyes
But in my brown eyes, I am not.
I don't know if I ever will feel that way again
Just feel that the whole me are completely gone.
I am not me anymore.
Just looking in the mirror
I said "Why, Why, Why, Why me!"
God knows I am hurting real bad
This can't be heal overnight
blood just flowing,
it hurt so bad
I don't want to live with it
I rather die with it
I know God didn't bless me this
This mistake I made is the price I have to pay
I'm not proud of the choice I made
I have learned my lesson
Those mistake WON'T be repeated
Do I deserve this?
Just looking in the mirror,
How can I ENJOY Life?
HOW? HOW? HOW? HOW? crying.
Enjoy life is impossible
Impossible for me
Cuz I don't feel so worthy to enjoy life
Just feel my life is so over
It will be hard for me to move on w my life
I know I lost father last year
Do I suffer enough pain already?
so much pain to burden
Pain just keep coming and coming
Just can't deal with it anymore.
Just can't
not anymore
Do I deserve to be on dis earth?
Why am I being punishment?
It just keep getting worse and worse
God, pls help me. pls
This will be extremely difficult tha I have to face in life
I try my best to accept this
i try my best to move on.
In reality, I have to accept what have happen to me & my life.
I wish I could go back & prevent it from happen.
God knows I am really trying hard.
Crying, it is so hard.
God, I need you
I wanna cry along with God and follow every where he goes.
He knows my pain
Please take my pain away. Pls God, I don't want to feel anymore.
I rather to DIE than feeling this pain
Copyright by Contessa Brown
Woke up feeling so upside down
Took a warm bath
Didn't feel beautiful
Didn't feel like a lady
There were nothing to feel
Just looking in the mirror
What do I see?
I see nobody
Just don't see Contessa Brown, not Sexi Mama C, Sexi Shea Bear, nor LaShea Williams
I don't exist
Not in my brown eyes, I don't.
Just looking in the mirror
I see tearing flowing down my cheek
Whatever made me cry hard, it hit me hard
As I was crying, I feel my life is over
Just looking in the mirror,
Just not a beautiful women anymore
I know I'm beautiful in God's eyes
But in my brown eyes, I am not.
I don't know if I ever will feel that way again
Just feel that the whole me are completely gone.
I am not me anymore.
Just looking in the mirror
I said "Why, Why, Why, Why me!"
God knows I am hurting real bad
This can't be heal overnight
blood just flowing,
it hurt so bad
I don't want to live with it
I rather die with it
I know God didn't bless me this
This mistake I made is the price I have to pay
I'm not proud of the choice I made
I have learned my lesson
Those mistake WON'T be repeated
Do I deserve this?
Just looking in the mirror,
How can I ENJOY Life?
HOW? HOW? HOW? HOW? crying.
Enjoy life is impossible
Impossible for me
Cuz I don't feel so worthy to enjoy life
Just feel my life is so over
It will be hard for me to move on w my life
I know I lost father last year
Do I suffer enough pain already?
so much pain to burden
Pain just keep coming and coming
Just can't deal with it anymore.
Just can't
not anymore
Do I deserve to be on dis earth?
Why am I being punishment?
It just keep getting worse and worse
God, pls help me. pls
This will be extremely difficult tha I have to face in life
I try my best to accept this
i try my best to move on.
In reality, I have to accept what have happen to me & my life.
I wish I could go back & prevent it from happen.
God knows I am really trying hard.
Crying, it is so hard.
God, I need you
I wanna cry along with God and follow every where he goes.
He knows my pain
Please take my pain away. Pls God, I don't want to feel anymore.
I rather to DIE than feeling this pain
Copyright by Contessa Brown
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