Long Distance Love

When it hurts so bad,

why does it feel so good?

I wish this all made sense,

I wish I understood.

Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,

but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,

and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,

but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.

Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,

but at the same time,

knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.

I just want this to be simple,

I just want you here with me,

to look into your eyes,

be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,

but I'm still hoping one day soon,

I'll get what I'm wishing for.

By: Panda

My beloved loving father Johnny Ray Morris, JR.

I am so emotional breakdown when I heard the news

I can not believe that you are really gone.

I did not expect it was your TIME for you to go 

All I want is my father back.

God had taken you away from me

cuz he does not want u feel any more pain

God will take care of you for me.
God had gain a handsome anel

It was so shock  to see you leave.

It made me not to believe that you are reallu gone

just want to spend one more day, just one more day with you

cuz the feeling that i am holding is killing me .

I  feel so numb because

I can't move

can't speak

can't think

can't feel

can't eat

I barely can't do anything

I want to be all alone 

I don't want to bother with anyone for a while

I don't know how long it will take for me to be myself

what I need
a body full of water without trees

a way to express my feeling 

a way to scream my feeling out

a way to ease my pain

a way to resolve how I feel

Just you, me and God

and nobody else.

I am all alone in this world

Why did you have to leave me?

I am so mad at myself

Why I didn't call?

Why I didn't grab a chance to take a picture when u were alive?

Why I didn't get a chance to say "I love you"?

So many question to ask

I was so furious as tear was pouring down hard

I just don't feel everything will be all right

without you here with me

you made me feel so comfortable

I just miss you loving me

I miss you caring me

I miss being daddy's girl

Daddy, I miss you.

I may feel fine but on the inside, I still grieving

I want to ease the pain that I am feeling at this moment

It hurts as I shred more tear

I wont' stop crying

Tear just kept pouring and pouring

because it is so hard for me to let you go

I just love you too much for me to let you go

It is time for me to let you go but you won't be forgotten
I promise you that

you will always be there for me in spirit

it take time for me to ease my pain

Daddy, don't worry about me

I will be okay and u are up there watching me

I will be strong for you and myself

you won't be forgotten because I have you in my heart.

I thank you for having me in your life and having you in my life

You had been a great father to me and

I love you for that.

I dont' care what you did in the past, I forgave you, in my heart

You are a great person with a good heart.

You will always be my daddy and I will always be your daddy's girl.

I love you daddy, your spirit will always be around me.

Daddy, thank you for having me in ur life.

I LOVE YOU, DADDY.

You are in a good place. Take care of my family up there. Mwah

I MISS YOU, DADDY.

DADDY, I DID IT FOR YOU. I WALK ON THE STAGE WITH MY HEAD UP HIGH BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I HAVE NO ENERGY TO CHEER. LOVE U DADDY.

Copyright by Contessa Brown

How could you

How could you do this to me?
How could u?
I felt so heartbroken.
heart filled with hurt & angry
the pain I am feeling making me hate you more
We met each other twice
It won't be no third
I was mentally, socially, physically, emotionally, and intellectually attractive to you
but I was sensitive as you were not
you don't give a damn
My heart is full of blood  
dripping as it flood
drop by drop
drown myself into it
feel like i want to died alone with it
can't be undone
it can't be understood
why this happen
can't be heal back together faster
take time to get to wound my healing
gotta take the time to let you go
gotta shut you out of my life for good
because you are playing games
i don't give a damn if you got feeling
you don't give a a damn about me
why should I care?
Becoming a cold-hearted just like you
I gotta do this
i can't be your friend
i refuse to be your friend
you gotta accept that
it is so fuccin hard to let go of the person who I thought he is into me
until i find some hint of him
he was not into me
i am not afraid to hurt the person as i thought he cares
before I met him
he was such a sweet gentlemen, caring, & loving person
but he is fuccin pervert adn cold-hearted basterd
I never ever want to see you again
Never will
Same situation cant be repeat in the future
Gotta heal my heart up once you crushed it
so long, PERVERT WHORE!

FUCK YOU, 4 MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY!

FUCK YOU, 4 MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY!

Copyright by Contessa Brown

My one & only.

I am seeking for my one and only
My heart is broken into piece
can't seem to put it all back together
Gotta find the one who will help me
put it all back together
I will be all alone, so lonely if
I don't find the one
On the floor with tear running down my cheek
I am so heartbroken
been like this for four year
I did find the one guy that I like
I am not sure if he is the one
he is sweet, loving, charming, caring,
silly, intelligence, handsome, and crazy
Still not so sure if he is the one
My heart tell me that he is the one
but my mind & soul confuse me
If I give you a chance,
Will you be faithful to me/
Be true to your word.
Promise  not to hurt my feeling
love me?
Want him to be my one and only
How can I make him mine?
I can't force him to be mine
Who will be my one and only?
I am so afraid to give you that chance
He might mess it up
I can't afford to have my heart to be step all over again
I am too sensitive  about my feeling and heart
I cry easily to have my heart give to you if
you are going to hurt me
My one and only will be my true lover
where he come along into my life.
I will be waiting for my moment. 

Copyright by Contessa Brown

Kissin you is beautiful

So Softy

So Tender

So Thick

The moment we kissed

It makes ma heart

beat more faster

It likes a chill

going through ma spine

Once, I kissed you,

You made me

wanna go down wit you

Every time, I look at you

Ya handsome face made me hot.

Ya eyes are like a shiny marbles

Your smiling shunned me

I can imagine that 

I tasted you like a sweet chocolate

I want a bite of that sexi juicy lip

of your so bad.

So bad that I can make you scream

my name out aloud

I look in your sexi eyes,

tell me that you WANT me

I can't get enough from you

I CAN'T...

As we kiss, I cant stop kissing you

Your sexi lip of your turn me on

The fire, we built steam up the room

We can't control nor breathe

As long as we kissed,

the bigger the fire get

The bite of your sexi lip, make me wanna do you

make me wanna kiss you even harder

When I kiss you more

I feel this fire between us.

Let it flow, babi

Let it flow

It is just a one time thing

I need love affection from you

Would you give it to me?

All I need is your kiss.

Just one last kiss

It could last forever

For hours

It could lead one thing another

Just let it flow

Let it flow

Don't stop

What is it to be scared for?

Day goes by, I can't forget about you

The guy that I like so fuccin much can kiss

real good

That moment we spend together

You mad me feel

Good

Sexy

Secure

Warm

Beautiful

Any word that describe my feeling

which I am feelin right now

I will cherish that moment

It might not mean a thing to you

As it mean a lot to me

It only happen once

It might be our last time

To have fun and all

Kissin you is def. beautiful
 
Copyright by Contessa Brown