Feeling so angry inside

I am just laying down on my bed n thinkin bout you

I need you

I miss you

I want you

I care for you because I wanna hold you

before you go steadily with someone

I wanna give you my last kiss

The only thing I want is

for you to be happy

Whether it to be with me, without me

I just want you to be happy

Neva take anyone for a grant

Hold that person close to your hear

Because you might wake up one day

And realize that you lost a diamond

You walked into my world

I couldn't let you go

I really do miss you

I just thought we were meant to be together

I guess now we will neva know

You were my everything

You r worthy my wait

But you have ruined it

You don't give a damn fuck of

how I feel about you

What kind of game are you playing?

I feel so much angry inside

To figure out if this is my fault that I lost you

Or

He is playing game with me

You made me feel so used,

Stupid,

Lonely,

Angry,

Betrayal,

Unbeautiful,

Dirty,

Hurt,

And depress

YOU ARE A FUCCIN JERK!

Don't flatter me because it won't work that way

And I will not believe any word come out of ur mouth

Laying down in my bed with so much angry fill in my mind

I question myself

Do I ever think about u?

Do I ever cry myself to sleep?

Do I ever regret of having you in my life?

Do I ever regret of sleeping with you.,

Do I ever miss you?

In the middle of the night,

When I am awake

I forgot about you

I forgot:

His name

His face

His kiss

The love he once gave me

Now you have someone who is way betta me

I forgot:

Hos close we were

How you walk

How you talk

How you dance

How you make me smile

How you flirt with me

How you laugh and grin

The smile on his face

The love we make

The sex you once gave me

The way he make me feel secure, beautiful, and good

How he make me cry

How he hurt me

I forget everything about YOU

Cuz you aint worth a shyt to me

The feelin that I have for you s fuccin gone

I will never bring it back and I don't want to bring it back

Cuz it will hurt me even more if I thinka bout it

I am through of crying every single day

It aint getting anywhere near betta

My heart can't take it anymore

Not worth to cry for someone who does not give a damn about you

Feelin is so fuccin value to me, so cherish it

Truth will set you free

if you just be blunt about it

I wouldn't be feeling like this

Life is so hard to deal with

Time for me to move on

You are in the pas and whatever

guy that I like is my future

It is your loss that you lose a good women like me

I will move on but I will continue to give men a hard time

No more of being kind to men cuz they tend to

Take a advantage of it.

AIN'T LIFE IS A DAMN BITCH????

DECEMBER 2006

Copyright by Contessa Brown