Let go of someone you love is hard

It is very hard to let go of the person you are so in love with but it is very hard to try to hold on the person when you are about to give up. No one say giving up love was going to be easy. Ugh I'm going to miss loving him. I'm so disappoint the way thing have to end for the both of us. We let our argument on text kill our relationship. Maybe something is telling us but we tend to ignore it. Why LOVE have to be so hard to deal with? I don't want to start all over again to love someone new because I'm so afraid to get hurt. I thought I have everything in life. I just can't expected and wanted what I want in life. I'm so much in denial and I pretend that I'm not in love him. I had been lying over again and refuse to admit that I'm fucking in love w the dude. It take a long process to move on with my life but it won't be easy. I am not really sure if I am ready to give up on love or give up on him yet. All I want to do is hate the person who made me feel that way. Nah, I just CAN'T hate him yet. Not just yet. It is a wake call for me & no more going back and forth to him. If he ain't putting anymore effort in this, I'm so done so done. No more of my kindness being taking advantage. I won't be a giver. It should have taught me something.

Conflict in Love

Conflict in LOVE

Love is in the air until you catch it

It takes time for it to come to you

There r different kind of love

I caught one but his love is not what I want. Abusive love could lead

into violence relationship

Your physical attractive did catch my attention

first when I met u

But it is not enough

Thinking you are all that

Thinking you are hard

Tryin so hard to impress me to like you more

I have seen you many time but I was not fully attractive to you

Just a little

Thing doesn't go right with us( thing doesn't went well with us)

I like you as a friend

You like me more than a friend

I see you as a friend

But you see me as boyfriend/girlfriend materials

I wish I could feel the same way you r feelin

I should have walked away when I first laid my eyez on you

None of this shyt would happen

You r not the type of man that I would date

I can't picture myself with you

When I am with you

You don't make me happy

I feel angry, mad, uncomfortable, fussy, and sad

I don't like one bit about you

We don't have anything in common

I am a ghetto classy women in a good way

I have a lot of good inside me

You have a lot bad inside of you with a good heart

I am a good women

You are gangsta

I have a good personality

You have a bad personality

My life was lil hard and raised well.

You went through a hard life with a lot of struggle.

But we r not on the same level where we at

Strong women like me won't let the bad thing come into my life

What is so special about me that you want?

Nothing is so special

I am not the women for you

Find ur women who down for you

I am not down for you

I will not be the one

I guarantee you

Why you want me to be the one?

So you can keep me the path where you are

Ruin my reputation

Destroy my life

Be stuck with you allthe way

Won't happen.

Can't have that shyt in my life

I aint judgin you

It is the truth

You r blind

look close in the mirror hard

And tell me what u see

U will understand what I am sayin

Is that the kind of life you want?

Take it as a considerable

12/06
Copyright @Contessa Brown

Love is hard

Should I hate you because you hurt me

Should I care about you because you hate me

Should I be there when you don't care

Love is so fucking blind

I have been blind to love

someone like you

always thinking my loving you is very easy

but losing you is very difficult

how can I deal with that kind of love?

Why am I so afraid to lose you when

you are not mine?

i was born the day I fell in love with you

I die the day you left me with a broken heart

I live in the moment when you love me

i die in the moment when you hurt me

I will always love you no matter what 

The way you treated me,

just hurt me even more

I will never stop loving you.

I know that I was losing you

& I lost it

you just throw my love away

You just put my heart on the bottom of your toes

and walk all over it like a piece of trash

i will never ever forgive you for that

Once I find love again,

you will regret it

I wanna you to be my first love

& be my last love

is that too much to ask?

I can't have what I want.

Never will

too much of my kindness

turn you off

being nice is too much for you

too much of being clingy

annoy the shit out of you

too much of what.

how would I know if you keep all your feeling to yourself.

how can I read you?

I am not a mind reader

How can I understand you

it is too much for me to handle.

I will always love you no matter what

u will always have a place in my heart

if we aint meant to be together.

 Copyright @Contessa Brown

The love from my past

You will be the love from my past once I get completely over you. You will always have a special place in my heart even though it is broken. Once my hearts heals itself, your place is still there. You are the best thing that ever happen to me. No one will ever replace you. Not another Scorpio. I thank you for letting me to LOVE you. I enjoying my time loving you. & other moment we be pissing each other way too much. You are such a great person. There is no going back. You will be living in the my past. Just hate putting you in my past which I don't want to. If you are reading this, I will never stop loving you, cutiebear

You are Beautiful

She wrote this poem after I wrote " Da Whole Me Are Gone". "Somehow she felt my pain I love her for that. As I read her poem she wrote me, she had me in tear. Thank babygirl, Lateefah P. Thank for cheering me up.

“You Are Beautiful”

You are beautiful from inside and outside.

The beauty I see in you would be who you are.

You expressed yourself in a way that most people may not do.

I can see that you need help and you leave in God's hand.

I would be so willing to give you a shoulder to cry on.

To help let go of all of your emotion that you need to release, till then you may come to the term of what you can do about your situation.

All of your burden that you had will be lift.

You will have a positive energy surrounding you knowing that you have someone to support you.

And most of all, you know you can advocate yourself to keep you happy.

I'm all eyes to listen to your problems and I'm sure that the same to other important people in your life.

Sometime in life, we are not satisfied with what happen to us or the answers to the problems that we have.

I'm sure you already know this, we have to accept hard, move on, and accept reality.

The only thing we can change is ourselves.

Since you are not happy about yourself and didn't think you are beautiful, why don’t you take a look at the mirror again to see the positive side of yourself?

I know this is hard, try it, and hopefully you will see yourself in a better perspective.

Since no one is perfect, we all have our weakness and strength.

I’ll pray for you to heal soul and for you to recover to find your strength again.

I’ll pray for you to find yourself again by knowing who you are.

I’ll pray for you that you will be alright and you are gaining to be a better and stronger woman than in the past.

SMILE!

Forget love

Forget love
Love ain't worth of trying.
  Trying is just a waste of time.
Tired of giving a good man a chance
Tired of being such a giver
Every chance I give is being diminish
If my love can't satisfy you,
Find another women who can satisfy u
Don't mess with me nor my heart
My heart is like a diamond
A diamond should be cherish
Be real and tell the truth
Don't play game with me
Love is not a game.
For eight years of being single had been wonderful.
But where is the love at?
Love is in the air but hard to find.
I know know darn well, love is not in the air
Love is dead
Man, love hurts.
It hurts to be lonely
Life is a bitch
Life give us a test to make it through
No one is perfect to have a perfect relationship.
Love is so easily to get hurt.
I don't want to deal with any of that mess.
I don't need any man to love me.
I love myself more but not enough room in my heart for me to love my future soul mate.
I don't need any man to keep me happy
I am happy the way I am.
My heart won't have any more room left to love.
it is so full of hatred.
Heart broken into a half with
Bandage rip apart.
Blood drip as it flood
As I crying hard
Mixture of blood and water won't do any good
Still feel the pain in me
Who made me this way?
Whoever crushed my heart did this
Love is not a game to be play with
Love is not a toy to be play with
No one is not prepared for the pain.
No even me
I am so afraid to love the next person
who come into my life
I am afraid love will left a scar in my heart
My heart is not ready to settle for love.

Crushing my heart too many
time made me feel ugly, insecure and lonely.
My heart is way too value to me.
All I can say forget love.
Love is nothing but pain.
What is so special to be in love?
2009, being in love is dead
What happen to love in da 70's n 80's?
No more going to the movie
No more walkin in the park
No more watchin movie at the crib
No more going on a date
No more askin girl out on a date
No more walkin to da mall
No more dating
What happen to love?
love is dead
Everything had change since 20th century
1970 to 1980 was the best year
21 century suck for real

All they want to do is CHILL
 no one dont have time to chill
I don't want to be in love
Not in this 21 century
No good man out there
Too many baby daddy out there
Too many disease out there
Too many unfaithful guy out there
Too many pervert out there

Too many bunch of lazy dude out there
Man, that is why findin love is a damn batch
Make life more difficult
No more giving
I ain't male bashing
I am speaking da truth.
Copyright @ Contessa Brown

Darling, Be my Valentine

Darling, Be my Valentine

On this special Valentine's Day

I think of you very often.

When you are not here to celebrate together

I want memories to bring us laughter

I want us to create our first Valentine's Day moment together

It gotta be special

Our love got us so stronger.

After all those years of loving you

so many thing we've been through ups and downs

I consistency taking you back

You just don't know HOW much I LOVE YOU, BABY

I can show you better than my words

And why am I in so much love with you?

You got me feeling like this.

I couldn't stop crying after you cause me pain

You didn't give up our love us

I know somewhere in your heart

you still love me no what

You will always be my Valentine 

cuz I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Copyright @ Contessa Brown